"You won’t get better by just swimming recklessly like an idiot. Take a break. If you overdo it, you won’t be able to do what you could before."
sousuke saying “take a break” to nitori completely destroyed me. i’m re-watching that scene on loop and crying my heart out because the way he says take a break BREAKS ME
who knows if someone told him to take a break before he injured himself. maybe someone did but he wouldn’t listen and now he’s paying the price. and like, yeah, he’s bitter, yeah he’s hurting, yeah sometimes he’s rough and kinda rude but that boy cares so much.
the way he’s been helping nitori is proof of that. he told him not to give up, because his dream may still come true and he should not waste his potential. and then he takes responsibility for that, ‘cause yeah, he should not give up, but nitori also needs to know his limits, he needs someone to guide him and be there so that he won’t overdo it. someone who knows exactly how he feels, someone who had that same dream. has the same dream. i don’t think sousuke gave up, but he’s very aware of the situation and he absolutely doesn’t want nitori to go through that. he can realize his dream without hurting himself, he can have someone by his side who’ll make sure of that.
"take a break"
it just sounded like a plea. his voice was so soft and his tone intense. there was regret and awareness and it was so caring. please take a break, before it’s too late. that was probably the first time sousuke faced his situation in a new way, by trying to save someone i mean. by softening up, by really looking at himself through nitori. he’s always been so desperate and dark and angry, especially when rin wasn’t looking - except ep 7 - and now he’s just… he’s slowly accepting it, i think, and helping nitori could just help sosuke as well somehow.
take a break. maybe sousuke is taking a break too. maybe he’s trying to find his answer in a new way that won’t ruin him even more. i don’t know, i’m not even sure how bad his shoulder is and if his swimming career is actually over (probably not?? kyoani you’re not that cruel are you), but i think that was a great development. it fucking broke my heart but yeah
fuck sousuke feelings goodbye